jimmy jameswe have nothing to fear but ourselves
March 1st 2009 09:12
Fear is a funny thing.It can be the central emotion that all the other emotions are born from.
It usually is the culprit behind any major depression and the main motivator when it comes to addiction and alcoholism.It does either one of two things: It motvates or it devastates.
dont be skeee-red!
Perhaps what they mean is staying away from things that are bad for you.Sometimes we have problems doing that.More is never enough and even though something might make our lives unmanageable, we will fight it to the end.
That is an example when fear could motivate.Doing the same thing over and over and getting very negative results could lead us into a motivation to change our behavior.
Fear can also devastate by not changing.I can relate to that one because I happen to be facing a crossroads in my recovery.It is time to move forward and fear is holding me back.It is keeping me from doing what I need to do to get to where I need to be.It is comfortable to stay where I am because fear tells me I am not ready to make a change.I feel as though I am walking through quicksand and getting nowhere and sinking fast.It almost feels like there needs to be this leap of faith, yet the faith I have is fleeting.It comes and it goes.Kinda wishy-washy based upon past experiences that didn not turn out as planned or as expected.
brave sir robin chickened out
The fear of not knowing how things will turn out.Did I make the righ decision?Whats going to happen to me?I need to know!
I like it when I am in famiiar territory where everybody is friendly.It really builds my self esteem and I feel good about myself.But to venture outside my little place of safeness can be a scary thing.The world is such a nasty place and very unforgiving.I'll be mashed!
One thing I have come to realize is I can not face this alone.I don't know how I got to thinking that I am supposed to be equipped to face life on lifes terms all on my own.I should know how to do this even though I have never done it before, but I SHOULD know!
Bringing my fears out into the light doesn't make them go away.They will always be there.But talking about them and working through them is better than fighting them.
I also know that I am not the only one that feels this emotion.Just because we may have depression and addiction doesn't mean that we are the only ones that feel it.It could be debated that we may feel it more intense than others, yet I think that remains to be seen.I never question another persons pain or fears.It is easy for me to be on the sidelines yelling for them to just face it!I have no idea what they are feeling.I can only imagine what they must be feeling based upon my own experiences.And the best thing that can be done is to just continue to share our own exoeriences with others so they don't feel so isolated and alone because isolation can be devastating.
It is always nice to have a safe place that we can go to,a comfort zone.I always looked for that fom the outside.These days I am starting to see that the safe zone is in me, by slowly accepting myself for who and what I am,I can continue to move on and know that no matter what,I am going to be alright.
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