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Obsession

July 29th 2008 17:15
obsession

Obsession can rule your life. It is probably among the top five behaviors, along with resentment, anger, fear, and pride that can be devastating. These emotions can be the primary cause of obsessive thoughts. Trying to chase a thought out that keeps playing over in your mind can be exhaustive. There are many ways to deal with obsession, but the only way these work is by constant vigilance.

There are those that claim that keeping busy, even with the most mundane tasks can help get your mind off the obsession. My experience has been both negative and positive with keeping busy. Work is a four letter word for me. I truly wish I was obsessed with some sort of “career”. I can’t relate to those that are workaholics. They are fortunate that they have found something to be passionate about, but it can also be a way of not dealing with painful feelings. The obsessions that I get are always very unhealthy and dangerous to my recovery. I was doing landscaping during a difficult time in my life, and one day my job was to weed a huge garden. Not only was it extremely hot that day, but it was the kind of mindless work that is great for letting those thoughts get way out of control. I felt as though I was in a prison of my own deep dark thoughts with no way out. I even experienced a few mild panic attacks and the only way I could deal with it was to take a break and go get a drink of water. I thought that taking a break would help clear my thoughts, but I realized that those thoughts followed me wherever I went. It’s the old saying that “No matter where you go, there you are“. There is no escape and everything you try seems to fail. Alcohol, cocaine, and weed were once old friends that I could count on to pull me through, but there came a point where even they let me down, in fact they made it worse by magnifying the thoughts 10 fold.

That’s where I came to the crossroads. I didn’t want to live, and I didn’t want to die. The choice of moving in the direction of living in the solution, or to continue down the road that leads to endless suffering, and eventually death.
Finding something that you like to do is very important. It helps by reminding you that you can become who you were always meant to be. Some folks find this by trying things that they never tried before. This is very empowering and can be the spark that you need to rise up and change your life and live it the way you want to.
Obsession can lead to another dangerous emotion such as jealousy. This is perhaps one feeling that is the most dangerous to us, and to others. It tortures us with the thoughts that are uncontrollable and difficult to identify until it passes. It sometimes seems as though we go through a blackout. These thoughts come to life by our imagination running wild. Some of the scenarios may not be true, and that is bad enough, but when they are true, it can lead to a rage. Certain relationships with the opposite sex can trigger these feelings almost instantly. Certain people can be toxic to us, and we need to identify who those people are and try and avoid them before it is too late. Otherwise, we end up falling for them and get hurt. Talk about falling into a huge pit of despair, heartache, rejection, sorrow, grief, anger, confusion, resentment, and self pity, a very potent cocktail ( Hee-Hee, I said cock!) That never has good results. These people may not be aware that what they say makes us crazy. On the other hand, revealing these feelings to them may cause them to play on it, especially if they are emotionally confused as well. Two sick people don’t make a well person.
Obsession can also take other forms. Gambling, sex, shopping, pornography, booze and drugs, just to name a few. It can seep into every part of our lives and make it unmanageable.
Like all feelings and thoughts that can hurt us, we need to be aware of the pitfalls. We need to be able to take control of our thoughts and not “fall asleep” and let our brain go on cruise control. Do whatever works for you. Just don’t give in to the feelings, thoughts, and behaviors. The results are never positive and we are the ones that always suffer.

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